Depression and pregnancy
One of the hardest depression of my life was when I had 5 months of pregnancy. Insomnia was present, I had no apetite, and I have terrible thoughts like “this baby won´t live”. The guilt was present with such thoughts that didn´t seem to be mine.
Prozac was proved and Rivotril for insomnia too in pregnant woman, the problem was the lack of apetite and the three hours of sleep I could reached.
I felt like a girl having a boy inside me. I wasn´t prepare and depression wanted to eat me bite by bite.
When my son was borned I felt such huge responsability and so lack of abilities that each time I left home I give my baby a blessing and a kiss considering I wouldn´t return.
A few days ago, I found a friend and she told me her experience with depression and pregnancy and I wasn´t different. She told me something like: or you give me antidepressive medicine or I will end death.
I understand the power of the dissease and I wonder again if we, who suffer depression or bipolar desorder, should be mothers or not. It is an ethical matter.
Doctors say that 25% of sons or daughters of depressive moms, get the dissease and after all I have suffered I make the question Do I like my son to suffer in the future like I have done?
You have the answer.